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I’ve talked a few times about a small mantra I repeated to myself in high school to keep my hopes up. “I deserve a chance.” It gave me enough hope to keep pushing and reminded me that no matter what I still deserved a chance to prove my worth and make my dreams come true.

Recently, though, I heard a different quote that’s been swimming around in my head. I recently started listening to the Distractible podcast with Mark, Bob, and Wade. Mark will often talk about the big projects he’s working on and of course his friends add what they know or what they did in the project. One of the things that popped up was a quote from “In Space with Markiplier” in which Mark’s character said “In a world of infinite possibilities, unlikely is just certainty waiting for its turn.” The quote really stuck with me and keeps popping back into my mind at random points throughout the day.

I often feel as if the odds are stacked against me. I get burned out quickly from my ADHD and depression. Not to mention I’m almost always anxious, especially about our finances and the ever growing list of responsibilities I have to take on as an adult. It’s difficult sometimes to keep pushing forward. Yet, I still try to take those steps to fix my health and achieve my goals. I keep slipping between doing well and feeling behind. Yet, this quote echoes in the back of my mind and it somehow gives me hope that if I just keep pushing forward, no matter how slowly, I might make it.

With the new move coming up, life is crazier than ever, but it’s a chance to start over. Maybe I’ll do better in a new home than I will here. Perhaps our finances will be more secure and my girlfriend can have a stable job. Maybe I can find a second job I love to help build a cushion. No matter how unlikely or bleak things may seem, there’s still a possibility.