It took me a long time to think this over. I do tend to skip a lot of important things that should be in my daily routine, but they aren’t often on purpose. The reason I struggle to brush my teeth in the morning is because I’d rather brush them after breakfast so I don’t ruin my breakfast, but then if I forget breakfast or do something else immediately after breakfast, I forget to brush my teeth. It’s a constant cycle with ADHD and depression because it’s hard to form habits or care about keeping them.
There are many things I’d like to add to my routine. I want to brush my hair and teeth, wash my face, eat breakfast and lunch, exercise, write, and clean up a bit around the house before work. It’s a lot, I know. I have been slowly adding these things or working on them on and off over the past few weeks, but some days are still hard. It’s not that I want to skip these things, I just know that if I do too much at once, I’ll burn out.
However, I hate brushing my hair. I always have since I was a kid. My mom used to cut my hair chin length when I was a kid because I hated having my hair brushed so much. Whenever I was bothering my mom, she’d threaten to brush my hair to make me go away. She used to call the hair brush “Jackie repellent.” Now that I’m older, I understand that it’s just the sensory experience bugs me so much I can’t stand doing it. I always brush my hair right before a shower but by then my hair is a tangled mess. I have been forcing myself to brush my hair in the morning so it doesn’t become an unmanageable mess, but I don’t want to. It is the first thing I skip when I’m not doing great or I’m in a rush. I hate tangled hair and I hate brushing it or anything else. And yet, I like having long hair! I just have to bite my tongue and actually take care of it.
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