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My confidence really depends on what I’m doing. Some things are a lot easier for me than others. There are quite a few activities, though, that leave me constantly second guessing myself and looking back over it.

Socializing is about a 2/10. Everyone is different in their sense of humor. Sometimes I think I have someone nailed and then they change on me based off their mood. I can never tell is a person actually likes me or hates me. Some of my coworkers especially leave me absolutely boggled. I can read social cues very well but most of them show up after I opened my stupid mouth. I also tend to be very impulsive. Sometimes I just say what comes to mind and most people don’t know how I got there. I realize a lot of the things I say can seem offensive when I really didn’t mean to. I am constantly working on my social skills but I find that it doesn’t always help and some people aren’t as willing to forgive. I just happen to be one of those people you have to know to understand and like; an acquired taste of sorts. Not everyone is willing to take the time to really get to know me and understand my humor.

My writing is a solid 9/10. I worked hard to get to where I am today. In high school I hated myself so much I couldn’t stand to hear my own name. The only thing I liked about myself was my writing ability. I tested into the gifted program in the third grade for my composition and grammar skills. I know there is still much to learn about English as a whole, but I am eager to learn and grow. This skill set is my passion! No matter what anyone says, I know I am good and I know I can make it something!

Cooking about a 7/10. I watched my mother cook us homemade meals every night and learned a lot from her. I can follow a recipe and make adjustments as needed. I can also figure out my own small cooking recipes for single portion meals or even just a small snack. I like making myself and my roommates a warm meal when I can and most of the time it comes out well. There’s still a lot to learn and I make mistakes often but that’s all part of the process. I am not at the point I can make my own recipes but I find that what I can do is enough.

Art maybe a 6/10. I love doing art and in a lot of ways I am good at it, but I don’t know how much I actually like my style. Everyone has a unique art style but I find mine to be a bit awkward at times. Some of my characters seem to have bobble heads and my shading is always uneven. I know artists are their own worst critic and I find most other people don’t notice the imperfections like I do. With practice, my art has improved a lot over the years. I really enjoy looking back at old drawings and seeing just how much I’ve managed to grow!

No matter what skill I’m assessing, I can’t bring myself to a full 10/10. I know there are plenty with other styles and higher skill levels which I admire greatly. I still have much to learn in life and I tend to look at everything I do with harsh eyes. I want to grow, therefore I find my mistakes and tear my projects apart to make them new. Sometimes it can mess with my overall confidence, but overall it leads to higher quality results. The best way to grow is to fix what you did wrong and make it even better.